I know. Everyone is probably thinking the same thinking. Well, this girl is in the wrong business. Trust me, I get it. It sort of happened by accident, my realization that I couldn’t take it. I finished a second draft for a YA fantasy romance and hired an editor to read it for me. I had really high hopes for it, as most writers do for their work, right? You don’t really expect the worst. Not at first, anyway. Then maybe after a week, the negative thoughts start to trickle in. *shiver*
So I gave this editor the manuscript and I start working on my Untitled Action Book. (Actually, it’s got a title, I’m jut not ready to reveal it to the internet yet. :P) I was hard at work, happily writing 10+ pages a day, when this editor returned my book. She was very nice about her critique. It wasn’t even that bad. She said the book was really good and had a lot of potential, but the manuscript needed some work. I needed to move a lot of things around and remove/add a lot of stuff, so it would be best to just rewrite the book. Well, this hurt my feelings. What can I say? I’m a sensitive person in general. Normally, I don’t mind being this way. But it bothers me with my writing because it completely knocked me off my writing horse and I haven’t worked on Untitled Action Book for weeks!
My husband said I need to toughen up. He said if this is the path I choose, to be a professional author, then I’m going to have to learn to take criticism. What am I going to do when an editor sends me my manuscript back and tells me to scrap it and start over and I have a deadline to meet? Stick my head in the sand? No! I’m going to have to make it work.
So what have I been doing to combat this? Well, I’ve been trying to tell myself that an editor is not an enemy. They are our friends. Their goal is to take our books to the next level. I’ve also been spending 1 to 6 hours every day in front of my computer just…sitting here, waiting for words to pour out onto the screen. Normally, nothing happens. But one day, something will. The inspiration will return. I can’t give up. If I do, I’m afraid I’ll go back into that horrible drought I was in for years where I didn’t write a word.
Last night, I felt a flicker of inspiration as I read about this one author who got published. So I woke up today and I haven’t even turned the TV on. I’m just going to get straight to writing. Let’s see how that goes. Maybe next time I blog, I’ll even have a page/word count for you because since last time, it hasn’t changed much. Well, here goes! *dives in*